I have fainted just once, and even today I'm still surprised and disturbed by it.
I was living in Sweden with Jonas, probably 1998ish, and I had just finished taking a shower. I wrapped a towel around me, and the next thing I remember was hitting my head on the floor. Jonas had heard a thump and had come immediately into the bathroom to investigate, and I resumed consciousness pretty quickly. Looking back, I don't remember that the water had been unusually warm or anything, so I'm still not totally certain why I fainted.
The most unsettling aspect of the experience was remembering when I hit my head. I think it was the impact that brought me back to consciousness, but I had this eerie "memory" that I had been banging my head on the floor multiple times. Jonas assured me that there was just the one impact, but even to this day I have a hard time shaking the feeling that I was intentionally, although unconsciously, hitting my head on the floor of the shower.
Have you fainted?
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Had we, as children, picked up on something? Today, with 20+ additional years of life experience I can look back and see that there were probably some indicators, but is there even such thing as "gaydar" among 11-year-olds? In 1986? Or did someone have some inside information and the rumor simply spread? We'll never know, but I found this really interesting.
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It seems to me that there are two primary motives for homeschooling -- either to provide a better education than the parent thinks the child would receive in school, or to prevent the child from receiving information that normally would be included in a public school education. As a parent concerned about the quality of the public education system in this country, I can now understand the tug of the former. What is scary, however, is the seemingly astronomical increase in the number of parents who are now home schooling for religious reasons. They do not wish their children to be exposed to facts and concepts that directly conflict with their religious beliefs, and as a result these children are going to grow up lacking any kind of critical thinking skills. As a mother who hopes to fill my daughter's head with as much and varied information as possible, all I can think of is what a very unfortunate disservice these parents are doing to their children and their children's futures in the 21st century.
The homeschooling phenomenon also causes me to wonder what kind of standards are in place to ensure that parents are actually quality teachers themselves? Is it ethical for a parent who did not do well in school herself to decide to homeschool her kids, knowing that the knowledge and understanding she would be able to impart will be subpar? I honestly don't think I am cut out to be a teacher, so I think it's best to leave that to someone for whom it is a true calling. There will always be a small number of people in society who are simply meant to be educators -- they have the gift. I doubt that the current enormous number of home schooling parents all happen to be in that select group.
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Kajsa's blocks, originally uploaded by Ryner12.
Kajsa's look of astonished delight at succeeding in stacking the blocks 3-high gives me a perpetual smile. That's my girl, nearly 14 months old now.
At this time, I guess I wanted to be a post office worker when I grew up. Only a year later (as I read another of my essays) I had gravitated toward being an archaeologist or someone working with computers.
For me, the best part is the listing of things I don't like: Pickles, balloons and thieves (including a drawing of a thief with requisite black eye mask!).

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This morning, when I looked out the window, I saw a donkey. It was making noises like "HEE HAW" very loud. Then it ran down the hill and did donkey-kicks all the way. Then it stopped and looked around to see if anyone was watching. It didn't see me, but I could see it. It kept on going until the next block. Then it came back. I came out into the yard, and it saw me and ran. I went back in and it came back. I sneaked outside and got upon its back without it seeing me until I was on it. Then it went "HEE HAW" and kicked, but then I fell off and the donkey ran away.
LIZ & JULIA
Here's another drawing which doesn't seem to have a story to go along with it. It's a scene from nearly every day during the summers of my childhood. Our dock is on the left, the neighborhood raft is in the middle, and my friend Kari's dock is on the right. I have never been very good at drawing, but I like the focus on detail -- not only are there tires along the dock where the boats are moored, but there are red and blue reflectors on the swimming raft.

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The similarities are amusing with the yellow-orange background and wide-eyed innocence.
Since becoming a mother I've noticed that my reaction to babies and hearing about babies has changed in a curious way. It's not surprising that hearing a baby's cry would trigger a response of wanting to comfort and calm the baby (even if it's not my own). What's also interesting is that simply reading a story or newspaper article about something awful that happened to a baby triggers a feeling of panic in me. I'm guessing the panic is stemming from the idea that something so terrible could also happen to my baby. It makes sense, but it feels strange because it wasn't my baby.
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